Years of symptoms that would come and go didn’t help. There is that day when you wake up and realize you are not well. The tricky part is, this didn’t happen over night, there where signs, sometimes daily, sometimes occasionally, and they went without attention. How did I get to this point and what do I do now?
My journey with nutritional therapy began out of necessity. I’d like to say that I have always been passionate about nutrition and health, but that would be only a half-truth. As a nurse, I was of course interested in health and wellness, but I saw this through the lense of our traditional medical system and what I was taught in nursing school. Nutrition was something that was taught in a disease model-If you have XYZ, then you should eat this and not that; there was little attention to what a body needs to function and balance itself.
The balance in my life had certainly been out of whack for quite a while. When I really look back on this now, it extends all the way back to middle school. I was the weak PE student who had unexplained knee and leg pain who couldn’t run the laps. I was the student who was so drowsy after lunch everyday that I got marked down on participation in class. I was the student with intermittent constipation that would often have me in tears. But what does this all mean?
No one ever asked why, no one ever connected the dots.
Jump ahead to college and add in a heavy workload, hospital training, irregular sleep, caffeine and poor food choices. Not only had I carried on with my low fat, chicken only diet, but threw in more diet soda and rhammen noodles to add fuel to the fire. Late night subs, pasta bar…who wouldn’t have loved that?
I went out into the world of hospital work- rotating 12 hour shifts, day-night, weekend and holidays. More caffeine was added, along with more carbohydrates and sugar to keep me going. And go I went.
I went to the general practioner
I went to the neurologist
I went to the vascular surgeon.
I went to the chiropractor.
I went to the therapist.
No one ever asked why, no one ever connected the dots.
I had two beautiful children. I was super mom , super wife, super volunteer, super home-schooler.
Then I was super sick.
I continued to go to my healthcare practitioner and was finally told I had low thyroid and was given a prescription.
My list of symptoms continued to grow:
- Cold hands and feet
- Sleep difficulties-swinging from waking at 3 am every night to sleeping for 10-12 hours a day and still feeling like I had been run over.
- Digestion issues-diarrhea and constipation
- Hair falling out
- Lacking the ends of my eye-brows
- Joint pain
- Muscle aches
But my lab work was “normal”.
After a series of emotionally traumatic events, I had a mini-breakdown. I left my job and spent three months in my pajamas, watching Everybody Loves Raymond and The West Wing-binging on TV while I binged on big bowls of oatmeal with honey and pots of coffee with steamy milk. Comfort food for the weary.
And oh how weary I was. I could sleep for 10-12 hours, wake up and have my oatmeal and coffee, and need a nap an hour later. I would forget words and was sometimes unable to form sentences. My balance was not normal. I would drop things.
But my lab work was “normal."
One day, I opened the paper to find a half-page advertisement:
Are you on thyroid medication, but still have all these symptoms?
I had all of them
Come to a free information session about what might be happening and why.
WHY WHY! Someone was finally asking why!
The door was open. In one hour, I was introduced to the world of gluten intolerance, digestive function and immune response. Could this be the answer? I had more specific lab work done that looked deeper into my immune function and thyroid labs.
Congratulations! You have an autoimmune disease! Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis.
It is a strange thing when you finally get an answer to the why. There is a huge sense of relief, of validation – I am not crazy after all. But what comes after the why? What do you do? Can you do anything? Where do you start? There is fear, doubt and mourning for what your life was and how it must change to support your getting better.
Over the next few months with this new practitioner, I was told to do an elimination diet, take a bag –full of supplements and have frequent lab work drawn. I learned a few things from them, but felt like a guiena pig most of the time-it was clear they were new to this type of care. I did not feel cared for. I did not feel there was a plan. I had the epiphany one day – If I wanted answers I would find them myself. I was my best advocate. I knew my body better than anyone else.
I would ask the why questions. I would connect the dots.
Through months of research, things kept coming back to the same starting point…Nutrition.
Nutrition is the key to health and wellbeing. You have to start at the cellular level in order to build the body that works for you and with you. If you build it, health will come. After using the foundations of nutrition, I knew I needed to do something to expand my knowledge even further, and to later share that knowledge with others who are struggling with their health and feel unheard .This lead me to go back to school and become a nutritional therapy practitioner.
I am 90% symptom free. I sleep well. I am happy.
Nutrition saved my life. Nutrition is not dieting. Nutrition is having a diet that works for your body. Bio individual nutritional focus is available to all.
So I encourage you to ask your why questions and connect your dots.
You are your best advocate.